backwards kyla You can lead a horse to water, but you can't make him read between the lines. (Apparently.) 011214 ... mcdougall There is a reoccurring illusion I have had throughout life where in times of emotional trouble I try to move forward and get over my dilemma but only end up going backwards, so it seems. In reality my backwards is actually forward, and things are always overcome, but to me my forward will forever be my backwards 050729 ... crOwl push me pull you 050729 ... belly fire Going backwards can be a letdown. Sometimes revisiting an old haunt can be so fulfilling but today it was uncomfortable - like running into an ex that you vowed never to speak to again. They all wore plastic grins. The whole thing felt...sticky. Foreign. Realizing that I don't belong there anymore left an icky feeling. All that history(!)...I wanted to cry but instead I drove home the long way with the radio turned off. Tomorrow it will be easier because leaving won't be as hard as it could have been. 060712 what's it to you? who go blather from