not_enough_time amy in red there are some that are too busy to think about their moral quandaries. perhaps i was put on that one track where the people around me convince me that i had all kinds of time to sit around and think about it? but. perhaps it is them. who. should. slow. down. but, perhaps they shouldn't! ( no no easy answer. ) & i tend to think it my duty to wait-and-revenge all those who tend to think they have one? something like that. yes. but, i may definitely be criticized for not putting stuff aside to work on one side or the other of the solution. so, yes, i do not want a chaotic i-owe-you, you-owe-me thing, and, yes, yes i could stand to get more focused and concentrated, the trouble is, if i am not this already, how will i be? and, if i forget-a-bunch-of-stuff, will i be torn down to the ground out of sheer missing and longing for parts of this gestalt thingy? i think, though, the truth is i lost my gestalt thing, because person x y or z thought i actually wanted all that power. BUT! that's just what those types do, so i can roll it way the hell right back on to 'em if they think it's so, you know, cool. (but this give it back to the person who wanted it is also part of the problem) (you guys are probably fairly innocent though and of quite a bit of misperception about the thing. the truly non-faithy and paranoid to boot can pretty much hardly ever own up to the feeling. i think it's because they don't -really- want to be here, meaning, this planet, or something sort of along those lines, ish.) i think, if you don't want to face these things, like too much progress and the loss of learning, you really aren't looking out for the long-term. and, in return, why should your long-term goals be honored? it's pretty easy, yes it is, and i think it goes beyond selfish selfishness and into, you know, selfishness in all its guises and flavors. i'm being so very negative, right now, and yes that's unloving as far as the get-nurtured therapy story tends to go. that's just what it is, sort of completely ungrateful to come to a definite -human- and not-quite-disciplined (yet) understanding. but, back to the original thing. person A shouldn't shove their moral issue on person B. & that issue can become a really big quagmire when there is a move for socialization engineering or whatever that tribal-tendency of humans tends to be? something. who can be a 100% artist? like, without figuring shit out every once in awhile, is what i mean. 0000---the poor 80s. may they rest in peace. or, whatever needs to be, rightly. ---000 120213 what's it to you? who go blather from