loved_and_lonely
leif
I'm
carving
out
my
insides,
and
I'm
nearly
hollow
now
.
They
don't
know
because
I
still
smile
.
150810
...
gja
Keep
your
insides stored carefully.
Please
.
You
may
wish
to
put
them
back
where
they
belong
one
day
. PLUR.
150811
...
unhinged
.
it
seems
wrong
,
selfish
to
feel
this
way
.
i
have
new
projects
to
distract
me
.
a
creative
relationship
doesn't
fill
all
the
holes
,
but
it
is
better
than
nothing
.
150811
...
leif
selfish
indeed.
Rich
and
teeming
with
love
.
Yet
, desolate.
150811
...
unhinged
i
read
a
book
about
the
neuroscience
of
depression
recently
that
said
people
with
depression
tend
to
be
hypersensitive
to
the
biofeedback
of
a
'negative' expression
of
others
and
use
that
as
a
reason
to
isolate
themselves.
i
.e.
as
soon
as
the
eyes
start
to
see
the
corners
of
the
other
person's
mouth
twitch
downward
the
brain
perceives
a
frown
which
the
depressed
person
translates
into
'
that
person
is
upset
with
me'.
which
they
then
use
as
an
excuse
to
stop
talking
to
the
other
person
.
i
did
this
so
much
when
i
was
younger
.
i
would
stop
talking
to
a
friend
over
some
perceived
slight
that
was
really
just
my
depressed
brain
distorting
things
.
moral
of
the
story
:
i
make
myself
lonely
.
on_the_other_hand
finding
quality companionship
seems
harder
than
it
should
be
.
150827
what's it to you?
who
go
blather
from