jumpy tilt I can hear you shouting even when you're not hear. 150827 ... tilt *here. Whatever. Fuck you. 150827 ... tilt I can see you behind me, coming into my room. Makes me jump. You're not even in the house today. Is it because I feel guilty? About everything. Not working. Depression. Not supporting you. I know you are feeling similar. Or I infer it anyway. We don't talk any more. Only about sensible things. We don't open up. Too much at stake now. I don't know what to do. 150827 ... tilt So I bury myself in consumption to escape. There are worse vices. 150827 ... tilt So I bury myself in consumption to escape. There are worse vices. 150827 ... tilt I hold my breath to strain to hear. Is that laughter or anger I can hear today? Are you shouting at him? What's happening? I should be down there helping you. I am chained to the desk. I should be working. I'm not working. I'm playing games while you are shouting at him. I don't want to undermine you. He needs to be shouted at sometimes. I get that. But... I don't know. I just don't know. You rob me of the chance to feel. You react immediately and I just... i_just_cant 150827 ... tilt I need to get out of this house. 150827 what's it to you? who go blather from