i_searched_my_notes_for_the_word_remember warmthofrelease Do you remember having nothing to lose? Is it everything we thought it would be? (August 2015) The long war The infinite caring machine I would tell you some stories But I don't care to remember them anymore (March 2016) Remember when we used to say no to drugs? (June 2016) everyone makes mistakes but they don't all make amends remember that next time you're sorting through your friends (November 2016) (These Days) on the word "slut" I'm sorry You say you[nonzero]'re a sore loser, I'm a sore loser too. Interacting with someone that I want but can't have. It's hard. It would be one thing if I thought you were happy. But I don't. You remember how I said I felt like you wanted me to be something else other than what I am? I guess what was more true was that you could only be my lover if I was something else. That specific goal was only achievable by something not-me. I was trying too hard to hold on and I couldn't accept being in your life as something other than what I wanted us to be. This hurts like hell. (July 2019) just look at this youth look at this summer sky so abandoned with stars like empties on the battlefield feel the power of this earth from the driver's seat 70 miles per hour with your hand out the window understand this coincidental contentedness this accidental bliss that is what you're going to remember not this pain you carried with you when you stumbled here not the wounds which won't completely heal it's not as if you've forgotten all that's happened to you as if it was untrue or could be untrue tomorrow but that bliss not of forgetting but of plateauing the bliss of the moment when your pain still exists but does not matter when you go that's what you'll take with you (August 2019) and I don't want you to hate me for all the things you remember but I can't ask you to love me for all the things I managed to hide (May 2017) 250713 what's it to you? who go blather from