heres_to_the_passing_of_all_that_could_be_between_ itsnothing reading through blathes, desperately hoping to find a reference to me, but nothing. i had him for a second! i was taken aback the moment i looked at him at applebee's that first night. --the moment-- then, he kissed me. i was swept off my feet with the first touch, flooded with these emotions and this feeling of such importance when his arms were wrapped around me...but i got nervous when my feet didn't touch the ground. overcompensating for my feelings, i made it seem like i was using him, and he didn't like me anymore. then again, he'll always love her. it was nothing and i feel silly for thinking i could hold a place other than her shadow. i can say that it was nothing, but i can't ignore the fact that i actually had some feelings i will never lose. i can't ignore my heart literally breaking every time he looks so longingly at her, every time they do just what he and i did. than again, optimistically speaking, we were best friends. we are best friends. i have every love for him, and i can love him as a friend. here's to the passing of of all that could be between you and me. wish i could really mean that. 040215 what's it to you? who go blather from