forgetting_you cr0wl is like breathing water 100207 ... no reason is like filling up with nothing 100207 ... zedel . 100207 ... Bespeckled Is easy now that it's done. Forgetting you was hard when it was forgetting you. Now that you're forgotten, the forgetting seems easy. But I guess all things are hard when you're in the midst of doing them. "Hard." What a word. "Difficult. Challenging. A tough time." Such flaccid phrases to describe what forgetting you felt like. More like: Suffocating, nauseating, psychosis-inducing, aching! Even when not suffocating, or feeling nauseous, the aching, aching aching -- it was always there, in constant sync with my heartbeat. One breath, more pain. One breath, a movie-reel replaying your rejection. Food couldn't nourish me; it felt as unnatural as eating sand. The only feeling I could feel was the constant beat of aching. Forgetting you was very much like a death. Yours or mine, I'm not sure. 101012 ... unhinged the_day_you_died the_grey_hair_you_made gets longer everyday you keep calling impossible insane 101013 what's it to you? who go blather from