difficult_situations nr 1. two friends (a couple) both asking if i can recommend them to also freelance at the company i freelance with. they're both smart people and both completely able, but one has more experience and more of an attention to detail (i know this firsthand because i know him through work and i've seen his work), and i know that if i recommend him, he'll do a good job. i don't know what she'll be like — she could be great, but i just don't know, and it looks badly on me if i recommend someone as an expert when i've never even seen any of their work. beyond that, the extra employee is needed specifically to help us when we're too busy/sick/away, and i need to know the person has the ability to do so. maybe she does. maybe he doesn't. i don't know. maybe i'll test both of them first. 2. wanting to go back as a visitor but needing a source of income. currently being offered one, but a weird one and one i'm not sure i can realistically do, from my dad, who i don't want to work for, because i'll constantly be stressed. yet if i don't take that job, i'll need another, or a loan from somewhere. 3. being stuck in every sense of the word. knowing what you want but having it kill your spirit every day because it seems less and less possible. 150622 ... unhinged dating casual pointless ghosting objective reality leads me to the conclusion that what happened between us was just a drunken anomaly. as such, there's no reason to be irritated or confrontational. my emotional reality makes me want to tell you off. but we are at the point in the game where if i say anything else it will be easy for you to write me off as pathetic, clingy. so i say nothing 180615 what's it to you? who go blather from