darker_still raze alone in the black of dawn's dark kindling he remembered what it was to feel her stir and just past the bend where cold flames flickered he swore he'd make an effigy of her but the effigy became a cistern with points of entry in its sides each drop of rain a prison sentence for an unborn liquid bride he drank from her filthy reservoir and felt his stomach fill with leaves torn and heavy like wet paper slow the way a lover grieves and as he fell to drown within her rats patrolled his pimpled skin poised to drain the milk it carried with enamel razor thin one arm feeds the other behold the serpent's heart and in the east a pale sun rises beating down on all it governs you are but a drum of oil and i am just a tamed disease stripped of all its menace take pity on me would you please? 130522 ... unhinged i convince myself you don't think even a passing thought about me that you don't miss my smile or the way that i smell that you've probably found a new fuck_friend to replace me i make you an asshole in my own mind to justify what i did i could have been better to you but then again you could have been better to me funny how when i try to get in touch with my heart all i feel is cracking separating ending 130523 what's it to you? who go blather from