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epitome of incomprehensibility
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What does it mean to contemplate things?
I've contemplated branching off, radically (to the roots of what, I don't know) to become a computer programmer.
I've contemplated doing many things I'm not good at. I've contemplated suicide and not come close to trying it. I don't seem to be programmed to self-destruct like that; I don't know why that should be, but I'm thankful for it. I decided it'd be a net loss rather than benefit, given that many people I know would be upset, not necessarily about losing me, but that such a thing would happen. Also, I want to do more things, not just contemplate them, in this life. In one of those 2012 days, still in Ontario, I was walking to or from school over the highway bridge and I had the irrational urge to hurl my laptop bag over the edge (to be fair, the thing's heavy) and my next thought squawked, "But no, that's suicidal!"
My laptop now is the favourite machine I own. Should it be? That places my bicycle second, and my keyboard third.
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