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neoncrackle my therapist calls them "teflon moments"

when i will mention an absolute travesty or horror from childhood
with the same level of ceremony i'd mention an old commercial i remember

remember BFS foods?
also my stepmom put me in WW when i was 11
did you ever have polly pockets?
my step-sister had the exact same name as me &
was routinely held up as a golden example of how i should be
so much so that when she passed from overdose some years back now
my parents had shit-talked me so widely
that many assumed it had been me
were shocked to see me out & about
when i tried to go to the dentist
they had deleted my records
assuming it was me who'd died

i didn't go to the dentist again for 16 years
when i went back i only had one cavity
despite years of food hoarding
& a sweet tooth that my therapist calls a defense mechanism
the natural response of an inner child who lived through constant denial
& food insecurity upon regular insecurity

i wore a winnie-the-pooh shirt to my first WW meeting
none of my parents congratulated me on my
relatively
stellar dental health
when i finally went to the dentist last year

afterwards i bought a tub of storebrand vanilla frosting
just to keep in the pantry
just in case
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epitome of incomprehensibility They offer that to children?? It seems a dangerously narrow focus, equating health with weight, especially for a kid. There's so much potential for harm: loss of confidence, self-doubt, even setting people up for eating disorders.

That little rant over - and I'm probably preaching to the choir - I love your sense of juxtaposition. It doesn't just speak to personal resilience (that too!) but also a great poetic voice.

Also, I DID have a Polly Pocket! (being obsessed with tiny things as well as Antarctica)
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neoncrackle omg antarctica! i was obsessed with siberia.

it's funny how we fixate on things like that as kids & become so interested/invested in them. like how so many of us had dinosaur phases, unicorns, etc. or were really into ancient egypt.
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