resilience
amy adaptability
at
a
certain
point
,
you
keep
living
because
you
already
have
dealt
with
the
disappointment
as
such
as
a
"
thing
"
and
a
frustration
.
i'm
lucky
to
be
able
to
go
back
to
the
womb
,
back
to
the
roots
, except
that's
where
you
can't
go
,
so
i'm
safe
and
sound
in
an
abstraction
and
i'm
not
going
to
get
out
,
good
thing
i
had
a
25
year
shot
at
something
real
,
and
grand.
no
really
,
that's
for
real
.
it
doesn't
matter
how
cynical
and
silly
and
death
-warmed-over
everybody
else
was
.
it
was
my
time
.
with
internet
stuff
to
-be-or-not-to-be means eh
chances
are
it's
a
big
nothing
and
keep
on
keepin
on
spinnin
that
flaxen
thread
and
givin
it
to
the
jailkeeper. it'll
do
.
keep
circling
the
tower
.
that's
fine
.
one
day
it
will
crumble
you'll
grab
a
souvenir
.
i'll
fall
on
my
head
.
that's
the
so
-fulfilling-life
of
the
maiden
aunt
,
George
Elliot
made
a
pretty
withering
appraisal
of
it
in
Middlemarch.
i
guess
i
never
recovered.
170417
...
unhinged
do
we
have
to
keep
testing
mine
universe
?
170417
what's it to you?
who
go
blather
from
