trying_to_be_okay eatingstars i can't seem to let go i don't want to let anyone too close i shut them out of my soul and i tell my self it's okay when im sleeping and all alone i know i have this problem and im scared im lonely im hurt i want to start over and say all the things i should have instead of starting now i sit here and feel fucking sorry for myself i am a pathetic little shit i will try regardless that trying didn't work before trying and trying and trying and trying is better than sleeping the days away and waking up and wondering how old i am what ive done with my life only being able to say fucking nothing its my birthday and im trying to be okay 060801 what's it to you? who go blather from