starting_line DammitJanet Alot of people love the excitement of new relationships. The area of time where you are discovering eachother, learn of eachothers isms, habits, likes and dislikes. But i hate it. The thought of brand new relationships start to exhaust me. That i have to go through all of it again. I'm the type of person that can't wait until that's all over. Until you get to that point in the relationship where you know the other person so well, you can tell what they're thinking just by the look on their face. Where you trust them enough that if they walk in on you in the bathroom, you're completely comfortable with that. Where you can feel familiar. That's what i love. That's what i want. This whole beginning, where i can feel insecure, excited, nervous, shy and giddy all at the same time. I don't enjoy it really, i don't like having so many different emotions flow through me all at the same time. I want the feeling of comfort, of security, of relaxation. It's going to be a long time before i get that again. But i'm going to try to enjoy it this time.. ya right. Good luck with that. 040326 what's it to you? who go blather from