speculation_is_futile jane but i can't turn my fucking brain off. i feel like my whole body wants to cry. like my insides are coming out at the seams. like my heart is melting through my lungs. like someone is smashing my chest with a large hammer. 080805 ... unhinged i should have told him 'you make me forget to be sad' the night where he tried to hold me close as we danced took my hand as i got out of his car and kissed it i should have done it told him grabbed him back and kissed him but all the should haves are futile now that he is more than happy with her just one more missed chance just one more opportunity that slipped through my fingers 080805 ... unhinged the past cannot be undid or 'you cannot redo a thing that has been undone' 081010 what's it to you? who go blather from