lying_on_the_floor kerry i spend a lot of time sprawled out on the floor lately. i come home and drop my bag on a chair and drop to the floor. or i don't want to be on the couch but i don't want to stand. most often it's back pain that causes me to lie on the floor. today i was lying on the floor and remembered how four or five years ago i called nathan because i missed him and wanted to be close to another person. he was so soothing. he sat next to me on the floor at work one time and rubbed my back after i had a seizure. he gave me a loupe as a gift and he toasted seeds in a pan for our salad and we ate lunch quietly in a chinese restaurant in eugene while it was pouring rain out. so i wanted to be close to nathan and i drove to his friend's house where he was staying. we went into his room and there wasn't a bed, just blankets on the floor. he explained that he didn't sleep in a bed anymore; the hard floor was good for his spine. i hadn't slept on the floor since i got out of the hospital and was able to fall asleep anywhere in any position. i rolled up my hoodie to use as a pillow and we slept side by side on the floor, and in the morning i woke up to see him peering over me, smiling and saying my name, and "wake up, wake up," the gentle way you'd wake up a child. 231006 what's it to you? who go blather from