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i was pregnant and about to give birth but the doctors had drugged me so that i would fall asleep during labor and i was trying to fight the effects of the medication. i got up and waddled around and told someone that i was a surrogate for my sister—which sister it was, wasn’t clear—and i was thinking about school and a presentation i had to do and whether i would get docked marks for being there or not. i mean, if i wasn’t keeping the baby, wouldn’t i technically be expected to be back in the classroom right away, say a day or so after giving birth? i sat at a dinner table, alone, looking out a sliding glass door into a yard. i wanted to ask my husband to join me because i didn’t think that it was fair or kind that i should have to eat by myself in that condition. when i looked across the table after no longer looking beyond to the outdoors, i saw that my husband was indeed dining in front of me and i was disappointed. eating with him was like eating alone. i said, “i’m going to have a baby.” he said, “i know.” it was as though my statement carried zero weight with him, that he couldn’t recognize or register what was about to change the trajectory for my body and my soul forever.
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Or labour, it doesn't matter. But this morning it struck me as funny that yesterday was Labour Day and the song "Labor" got stuck in my head (the one with "you make me do / too much labor") without me making the connection. Not that the words related to what I was doing that day - I did work a lot, sort of, but it wasn't men who were making me do it. For four or five hours, I was trying to wrestle the middle scene of Judgment_of_the_Aunts into some sort of structure. I'm still not finished. The characters (some men, yes, but more women) were slipping out of reach, one playing a tinny untuned piano to annoy his sister.
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what's it to you?
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