hard_to_believe water lillies it's been two years since that first solo show of mine in the mission. since that time we packed the car up, took the kids out of school for a week and headed south to san francisco for opening night. well, and a few other adventures along the way. harder still to believe: I've been sitting on these polaroids for two years now. actually, I've been sitting on a whole world of polaroids. I don't know, people. sometimes things just get lost. one: a ten year-old ava and the golden gate bridge. two: seen on victoria's street. three: that guy of mine in the middle of magic muir woods. four: leslie and salted caramel ice cream. five: bi-rite in the mission. six: me, victoria's bathroom. seven: yep, victoria's sweet stove. eight: cutest little launderette you ever did see. nine: lovely leslie and the golden gate bridge. and the cape. my goodness THE CAPE. 121106 ... nr you don't owe anyone anything. you should maintain your own happiness, not others'. you shouldn't use the word "maintain" when referring to happiness. you will ever have what's expected. you will ever want what's expected. you will ever have understanding of what you want and whether or not it's expected. 260811 ... raze that i'll ever have a good night's sleep again. that i'll remember what it is to walk through the world with a clear mind and a body that doesn't feel like it's breaking down. that we've really forgotten so completely what is to care for one another. that half a year can disappear in what feels like a week. that there isn't more_than_nothing after this life ends. 260811 what's it to you? who go blather from