give_in pralines&cream "please let me me." "um ... no ...." "please? just a little." *smile* "well..." "please?" *soft kiss* "please?" *soft kiss* *smile* "well ..." *bigger smile* "okay." 020321 ... silentbob you don't want to you tell yourself no no no no no no not this time it isn't going to be like last time or the time before that or the time before that this time will be different. This time you'll say no. and he'll listen. But instead he leaves you for someone else and when you question where he was, he gets defensive. And i think if it were me, i'd never leave you, and i'd always respect your wishes. Stupid bitch. 020322 ... lulie give in give up settle. 020322 ... pH bird "there's days i couldn't give a fuck and inbetween is where i'm stuck" "they say it's a roll of the dice they think i'm wrong i know i'm right" 020323 ... DammitJanet how can i become who i'm not? even though i do it everyday, neither of them needs to know me that well, i'd be changing too much. i just can't be someone who can enjoy not doing a thing. lazily wandering around poking at things and commenting on the weather. huffing about the workload and avoiding the hard jobs. but unfortunately, i'll go crazy if i'm not challenged. if i'm not running around with projects upon projects. everyone's playing mind games and i can't take much more. the only way i can win is if i become her, and i don't think i have the mental capacity to handle absolutely no stimulation whatsoever. so i have no choice but to give in. but i don't know how long that can last. 030129 what's it to you? who go blather from