eight_months bijou this is not the worst feeling i have ever had. but it feels pretty shitty. 040126 ... bijou47 this is not the worst feeling i have ever had. but it feels pretty shitty. 040126 ... unhinged that was two months ago and i'm still making a_list_of_you the one i fall into when i'm lonely all my bitter hate dissolved into the lies i make to keep myself from calling you cause i know when or if you pick up the phone you'll be angry the drugs you've been taking have been making you angry so i let them tell me that you don't deserve me to keep myself from calling you let myself think i was nothing but a hole to screw cause i know when or if you pick up the phone you'll be angry the drugs you've been taking have been making you angry but i just miss sleeping next to you grabbing for my hand my life had more meaning when i was holding you up and i'm waiting for the day that turns a year hoping maybe if i remind you you won't be angry that i can talk to you again like i used to when hearing your voice made me smile but this was the shortest year of my life in awhile when everything i went through helped me help you but when i call you i know when or if you pick up the phone you'll be angry cause the drugs you've been taking have been making you angry the fate i steered clear of this time because of you 040126 ... silentbob eight_months is alone 040127 ... Lick 12 years has an obit. 040127 what's it to you? who go blather from