driver's_license
raze
i
only
ever
got
my
learner's permit.
i
was
too
scared
to
get
behind
the
wheel
.
i
was
sure
i'd
end
up
dead
or
paralyzed
my
first
day
on
the
road
.
i
scrawled
the
questions
and
answers
on
countless
sheets
of
lined
paper
the
night
before
the
written
test
.
i
kept
retracing
my
steps
.
somewhere
i
still
have
those
desperate
study
notes
.
red
ink
like
blood
on
the
page
.
i
don't
know
why
i
didn't
ask
someone
to
help
me
turn
the
words
into
music
.
that's
always
been
the
easiest
way
for
me
to
make
new
memories
.
i
passed.
i
just
didn't
do
as
well
as
i
could
have
.
even
when
it
was
new
,
the
picture
they
took
of
me
made
it
look
like
i
was
disappearing
.
my
hair
was
thick
from
just
being
washed
.
i
couldn't
grow
the
beard
i
wanted
.
not
yet
.
nothing
connected
.
my
neck
was
a
skinny
arm
with
a
face
for
a
fist
.
at
least
the
license
was
good
enough
to
get
me
drunk
.
i
showed
it
to
a
bartender
once
. "
that's
definitely
you
,"
she
said
.
i
wished
it
wasn't
.
i
swallowed
what
i
wanted
to
say
and
drank
until
all
my
words
were
gone
.
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