challenge Q I hope I do not, actually I think I do not, need to challenge you to want to know. You would really like to know the unvarnished truth about that couple of days, wouldn't you? I mean that grand couple of days of poetry, the big names in the big city closer to me than you. Poetry from that magazine. You know which one! Where I thought we might have met and then, before you could answer, I needed to change my plans and could not be there. I do not think you were there. So please want to know. If you don't, please regard this as a challenge for you to come to know. Let me know, please. I'm ready to tell all. 021119 ... gja Prayed for and preyed on a challenge. Ridiculous in its audacity. Simple in intent. 100817 ... cocoon i quite like a bit of a challenge. it makes me feel good to push myself. 100817 ... unhinged i want you to understand (i know you can't) i want to be there (i know i shouldn't) i want it to end better (i know it can't) would it really help for you to know how horribly sad and broken i am? once again, i am challenged to keep it to myself. knowing that somewhere right now you are angry with me, putting it on me, blaming it on me. knowing that you won't, can't, haven't listened to a single thing i've had to say for weeks and most of your words and actions in those weeks have been nasty, confrontational, scary. there is nothing to do but keep it to myself. 100817 ... leif who's going to cremate me and let me go? 150317 what's it to you? who go blather from