building_a_wall raze she was taking a bath. we were talking about people and relationships. "can i say something?" she asked. "sure," i said. "you can say anything you want." "i'm more in the world than you are," she said. "and i think you have more power than you know. when you cross someone out, it's very final. it's powerful." she's friends with a few people i used to be friends with but don't speak to anymore. she said when she mentions me to them, she can tell they miss me. she can also see fear in their eyes. i doubt it was the reaction she was hoping for, but i couldn't help feeling good about that. i put up with a lot before i shut someone out. people get a lot of chances to redeem themselves. probably more chances than they deserve. but once i'm done, i'm done. i'm in a place now where i see little point in keeping anyone in my life who takes and gives nothing back. if those emotional vampires are too afraid of me for even the feeblest of attempts at reaching out or making things right between us, well...good. they can stay the hell away from me. let them bog someone else down with their bullshit. i've already done enough reaching for a few lifetimes. there are better things for my arms to do. like building a stronger wall. 130818 what's it to you? who go blather from