all_the_blathes_i_could_have_written raze i'm not sure how many things went missing when my computer seized up on me before i could save what i'd typed in a series of white boxes rimmed with red. it must have been a year ago. maybe more. there was a blathe about a troubled trip to italy when i was still in high_school. there was one that paid tribute to dennis wilson and the similarly doomed drummer who helped finish a song dennis never got around to singing himself. there was one about the humanity hidden in youtube comments. and there was one where i aimed to untangle what i know of my grandfather's strange, sad life while searching for his soul in the sounds he left behind. i've never been one to write things in a word processor before bringing them here. i work on rough blathes in browser tabs and rarely stash what's in-progress elsewhere for safekeeping. usually, when everything goes belly-up, my words are still where i left them when i'm able to right the ship. not that time. i don't know if i have it in me to try and reconstruct what was lost. my gut says if it hasn't happened yet, it won't happen at all. maybe someday my energy will line up with my ambition again. 231113 what's it to you? who go blather from