what_was_i_thinking mon staying awake so awake so late i am it is so early so very here this november morning 051111 ... ovenbird I was thinking about masking, and how I've done it my whole life without even knowing that's what I was doing and I was thinking of the migraine that's causing pain and pressure around my eyes and how that feels like a heavy colombina, jeweled and feathered and sparkling, and I was thinking that I would like the pain to go away. The pain of the migraine mask and the pain of masking. 261023 ... raze i was thinking about the things i keep meaning to do but not doing. and about_time. the blinding speed at which it moves. all the minutes i've lost or wasted or spent unwisely. how i have no way of knowing how much sand is left in my hourglass. how that's both a gift and a curse. how the phrase "salad_dressing on the side" can become something strange and unintelligible when you're fighting not to fall asleep. how my dressing is never on the side. i always want to douse my greens in the good stuff. 261023 what's it to you? who go blather from