um_yeah sardines he closed his eyes then. this is what god was like to him. growth in the darkness. he liked when he was not in control of his life. when shit happened and invited him to enjoy it. to see it. taste it. smell it. touch it. he loved how the past comes up to him like a friend he hasn't seen for years and says, "hey." he thinks, i know this person, somehow. and within seconds he makes the connection, thankfully. "hey," he returns. "how have you been?" "i don't know. you do, right?" and he thinks, um, yeah. 121105 ... sardines she saw her after nine months, as if something had been reborn. like something heavy had been removed from her and now she could hold more life instead. he told her she looked awesome. she said that it meant a lot to her. 121215 what's it to you? who go blather from