potential_zone amy in red Only one of my relationships ( some barely qualify for the term ) has ventured out of the zone of potential, and that one only to fall back in since the gambling with hearts does continue with him. a plague of having this retrograde Venus cycle back all the time. While I might want to come to terms for once and for all, others are comfortable making wishes for a rainy day, falling in and out of love, as if that boost to my ego has a solid advantage to my whole project of being me. No nobody's ever even pretended to make a real commitment. All fantasy. Some active, effective prayer mechanisms, but nothing that withstands storms, let's say. Not a lot of contact time. I'm not blaming them ( I sometimes wasn't that interested ), just saying' I am without that there sense of stability and that stage o development. And it shows in my puerisms, resistance to adapting to middle life, regressing to youth fast forwarding to old age, feeling like I'm no necessary component to anything, outside the potential zone, the willful fantasy non life, meta reportage region. Neptune's got a lock on that Venus. I think I won't get cancer merely because I faith heal myself, like, continually. 120607 what's it to you? who go blather from