integrative amy as i wake up, my tasks seem to become more difficult. that's what i get for being smart. more imagination. 030515 ... amy in red what is meant by it might be that you don't get to be 100% healthy, in the short run, and according to regular old medicine, in the long run too because you'll get heart disease or autoimmune disorders attending to your own wonkiness to tease it out into something that can shine and grow. to hell with those "goals"? they are talking spirituality, Western version. selfacceptance and sin, not magazine ads. although they might help with marketing, it's hard to message across that that's not what it is. (and there must be a distinction between enlightenment/renunciations and charity/compassion, although i'm not sure why except it keeps a wheel of sorts a-spinning. schroedingeringly, we won't be able to know if there is or isn't another world to aspire to in the future. a confusifier, but not totally, because the hard fact is the uncertainty until you get there. i'm talking about traveling through wormholes, of course. j/k. ) 160308 ... amy decade further dinged for brains, amy 160308 ... unhinged my mind has pulled things from the depths with regular meditation. i am trying to assimilate these findings. we'll see if i actually have the wherewithal to make the right decisions next time. 160309 ... unhinged meditation integrates fear with reality the thought of turning my sleep into a meditative state is intriguing 170108 what's it to you? who go blather from