i_want_to_be_fire
jinx
I've
been
needing
to
have
a
meaningful
conversation
that's
about
absolutely
nothing
.
I
have
been
so
numb
and
so
restless
.
I
alwasy
get
restless
in
the
winter
,
but
it
eventually
passes
when
things
turn
green
.
It's
green
here
,
and
I'm
still
needing
to
go
-to
do
something
.
I
wish
I
had
the
guts
to
pack
up
and
take
off
.
I'm
tired
...so
tired
,
but
it
seems
to
me
like
sleep
wastes
time
.
I'm
not
really
sure
why
I'm
concerned
about
using
the
time
I
have
...I
don't
know
what
I'd
do
with
it
.
There's
so
much
I'm
supposed
to
do
-but
I
really
don't
want
to
do
any
of
it
.
I
want
an
adventure
.
I
want
something
passionate
and
crazy
insane-
someone
I
can
cut
open
with
my
teeth
and
who'll
do
the
same
to
me
.
Red
is
such
a
pretty
color
...
I
want
to
feel
so
much
that
I
spontaneously combust.
I'd
become
a
smokeless
flame
that
found
empty
human
hearts
and
set
them
blazing
and
burning
from
passion
and
heat
.
Sweat
and
blood
would
pour
from
others
and
boil
within
me
.
Licking
tongues
-saliva
would
turn
to
steam-curling
off
my
skin
.
Open
wounds
that
feel
no
pain
bleed
,
and
red
fuels
the
fire
that
I
am
.
Sweat
beads
from
pleasure
and
drips
to
the
lips
of
a
lover
.
I
am
the
heat
and
fire
and
suana.
Sweat
and
spit
and
bleed
and
breathe
inside
of
me
.
Let
me
ignite
your
skin
-let
your
blood
boil
with
mine
-be
fire
with
me
,
and
I
swear
,
we
will
never
turn
to
ash
.
040409
...
jinx
It's
me
and
a
bottle
or
two
of
red
wine
...anyone
want
to
keep
me
company
?
040410
...
Ouroboros
"
I
want
to
be
fire
"
as
I
douse
myself
with
water
.
Be
a
fire
or
be
the
air
,
but
don't
just
be
a
smoldering coal,
to
cold
to
ignite
and
too
hot
to
discard. Balancing_the_elements
100324
what's it to you?
who
go
blather
from
