first_kiss wasting my hate I'm 18. I've never had a boyfriend. I've never gone on a date. I've never cuddled. I've never been kissed. Until yesterday... A fraction of my life changed. Yesterday I was kissed by a boy. My first thoughts... "EW! YUCK! GROSS! ICK ICK ICK! SLIMY!" oh ::shiver:: It wasn't just a peck, it was I dont know! It was so weird! and completely unexpected! so so weird I just wanted to stop him and ask for my lips back... just weird...just i dont know... And I obviously didn't know what to do. All I know is that I was really not ready for that. I was just shocked and horrified and confused! Why would someone that said they could never love me do something like that?!?! Oh my head hurts... I thought these things were supposed to be special? 030211 ... jinx I wonder what ours will be like... 030211 ... Cicero sitting side by side hacking at the keys focusing (but not really) on the glowing monitors in front of us my heart was stretched but not as far as my restraint until I scooted closer (to read her writing, nothing more) she leaned foward (to inspect her work closer, nothing more) and I too leaned to get a better view placing ourselves in range leaning like in the movies into each other for the kiss slowly but surely, with certainty but it's all past tense now 030212 what's it to you? who go blather from