emily_haines
raze
"
the
idea
that
we
have
this
attitude
toward
the
good
fortune
of
being
able
to
live
a
life
and
[
treat
that
as
]
something
that
drags
us
down
is
such
a
backwards
way
of
looking
at
life
,
and
i
find
it
rude
to
yourself
and
the
luxury
and
good
fortune
and
privilege
we
have
to
live
where
we
do
,
and
all
the
million
reasons
that
we
aren't
dead
.
there
is
no
eventually
.
because
it's
now
.
my
mother
,
she's
in
her
eighties.
whenever
i
call
her
,
i
say
, '
how
are
you
doing
,
mom
?'
she
says
, 'unbelievable.
incredible
.'
and
she
always
says
to
me
, '
you
have
to
trust
me
.
everyone
tells
you
that
life
gets
worse
and
worse
.
only
now
are
threads
of
what
i
was
doing
then
making
sense
to
me
.'
and
we're
all
told
to
fear
that
time
.
but
she
says
, '
it's
crazy
.
don't
listen
.'"
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who
go
blather
from