destroyed blown cherry You think I will be destroyed. How can you be so sure? You say you would feel guilt over destroying me. I don't understand. How is it possible to feel guilt over destroying someone whom you loathe, hate and despise? I worry that I may inadvertently destroy you. The fact that I cling as though I were a lemming. The fact that neither of us seems able to extricate ourselves from here. The fact that you are hiding your secondary motive even from yourself. Or have you revealed that to yourself now? But at any rate, I am not destroyed by this. I'll admit to having come close, but I know you cannot destroy me Blake. see: spectrum_of_emotions The only one who can destroy me is me. And I'm not about to let that happen. 020331 ... birdmad ruined_in_a_day 020401 ... pinhole image of blood I'm not hiding anything from myself. I can see you when I'm with you I can hear you but you don't make any sense 020408 ... silentbob damaged violated polluted marred soiled 020408 ... nocturnal she was so sheltered, the only genuinely good person I've ever known, and I destroyed all of that. I thought I was helping her by telling her all those things and exposing her to my conception of "real life," but I should have known it was too much to dump on a person all at once. she keeps telling me I "opened her eyes," but look at what's become of her now. she's collapsed under the pressure and now she cries all the time. I'm so sorry, liz. I don't know how to help you now for fear I'll only break you more. 020408 what's it to you? who go blather from