dear_____ twiggie i want to go lay in the snow, letting the tiny frozen pieces of water cover me. everytime i touch it though, i ruin it. footprints, marks, snowmen. they ruin that serenity that a freshly fallen blanket of snow brings. it makes me sad that it can't just stay. 010125 ... pathwrat did you get the you-know-what? i left it you-know-where. 010125 ... soia I miss you. I'll never tell you. 010529 ... spoons God, I wish to die tonight. w/love, andrea 020724 ... ever-so-slowly insane me go the fuck away and never come back, nobody likes you. sincerely, your conscience 020730 ... flux so, how about it? 040513 ... doesnt matter dear -----, it's been a long time. i'm sorry i followed you home calling you such terrible names and threatening to get 'my friends' to shit-kick you that day when you called ------ a fat bitch at the pool and wouldn't apologize. i'm sorry you changed schools because we threatened you. i'm sorry. i'm sorry i never saw you again after that. i'm sorry. i'm sorry for all the bullshit. i'm sorry. i don't know what was up with me back then. i was a monster, i'm still a monster. i'm sorry. thankyou for all the times you invited me to the movies. i liked it when we sang baby beluga and threw candy at the screen with those boys behind us. i liked it when we laughed together and when you showed me all the cool thingamathings that your mother's fancy jeep could do. i always thought you were one of the prettiest girls in school. i always wanted to be your friend. i'm sorry things happened the way they did in the end. i'm sorry i became what i did. i am sorry. i hope you don't remember me. 040513 what's it to you? who go blather from