causality_and_the_rear_view_mirror grendel i can look backwards and see all sorts of moments where the ensuing weeks, months or even years would have gone so much differently if i had made a different or better choice. and sometimes i wonder how i would be different all of those dominoes had fallen in some slightly different way 080902 ... unhinged 'my religion is to live and die without regret' milarepa the tibetans hold him as a saint. that single sentence proved to me why. but sometimes i leave my religion at the roadside, and i too wonder how it would be today if i would have made different choices. if the landscape of my heart would be smoother, if the walls would be shorter, if my eyes would be wide open, unshuttered. but, today is the day i could be who i always wanted to be. most things look better, become clearer from behind anyways. i try not to look back too much anymore. 080902 what's it to you? who go blather from