admission amy i've been here long enough to know. for me, this place is a pleasurable diversion. but it always brings me pain, later. it's like any good addiction, once the obsessions wear off. i carry it with me during the day, and it consumes me. it only means i'm lonely and lost. (try meditation, amy). if my life and mind were quieter, i think it would be okay. 020607 ... belly fire You woke up. You were scared. Scared because the rape felt real. And it felt good. I woke up. I was scared. Scared because he beat me down. And I was helpless. 021224 ... nr at least a smart part of me hates you 220911 ... kerry i was perfectly happy being alone 220911 what's it to you? who go blather from