why_this nom this why why this me my typing this this why 060327 ... lostgirl because this is it. 101117 ... Ouroboros Get caught in the pull of desiring something I've put limits on. Get caught in the lure of placing my power in his hands and being helpless. I know all this yoga is raising my kundalini energy up, but these root and second chakra drives seem a little too strong. Time to uproot old beliefs. See what is underneath this desire for sex and this desire for helplessness. I love it, love feeling alive, feeling sexually energy surge through me, but it feels twisted. Connected to something else. Self worth, power dynamics, really being seen. Who is it that I want to be this intimate with? Do I really know him? Does he really see me? Trying to move this energy to connect with my heart/brain/consciousness, and it's a difficult process. Separating truth from non-truth. Breathing through the feelings of desire, helplessness, and panic. Hoping I make the best choices I can. 101118 what's it to you? who go blather from