when_you_come_back
cr0wl we'll have to make new love. 090407
...
unhinged i just ran into him for the first time in five months
after texting him last week
in a moment of weakness
talked about inane things
(taxes)
he looked unwell
troubled
tried to inconspicuously eye me
but i felt it all the same
he always enjoyed our fucking
more than i did
said
'i have to get to class
if you want to get a beer sometime just email me'
but that was the part of him i had erased
i had hickies on my neck from someone else


i had avoided him all that time
because
once you become one thing
you can't go back
and be something less
because once you fuck someone
you can't pretend like
sitting next to them is enough
and sadly
for me the sitting is always better
than the fucking
090407
what's it to you?
who go
blather
from