volatile e_o_i I suppose I am feeling upbeat, at least right now. My mother was in the hospital and is out. There are interesting things to do at work. I have some writing projects that do not currently feel impossible. But it bothers me how much my feelings are dragged around, mostly dragged down, by a) my job b) feelings of being awkward or not, whether I managed a social interaction well or not Firmer footing desired. I need to invest in velcro or something. 160519 ... unhinged groundlessness impermanence 160520 ... unhinged i live with a constant low level fear that is magnified by the strangest things right now i need to meditate more to survive this with my sanity intact 170209 what's it to you? who go blather from