star_trek
raze this is what i always come back to. the worst of the lot. the bottom of the barrel. the most embarrassing entry in the entire franchise. "star trek v: the final frontier", with william_shatner serving as both star and director.

it would be charitable to call the end result a bit of a mess. and yet there's a small but pivotal scene before the final act that has never left me.

sybok, spock's half-brother, uses his telepathic abilities to heal two members of the enterprise crew, effectively erasing their deepest trauma. bones implores kirk to let sybok do the same for him. he refuses.

"dammit bones," he says. "you're a doctor. you know that pain and guilt can't be taken away with the wave of a magic wand. they're the things we carry with us. the things that make us who we are. if we lose them, we lose ourselves. i don't want my pain taken away. i need my pain."

his voice darkens, but it does not break. what we're hearing isn't acting anymore. it's the sound of a man unwilling to surrender the scars that shaped him.

if only the rest of the film had dared to be so brave. so human. but then it might have burned a hole right through the screen.
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