sometimes_the_universe_mocks_us Anna_Began This is what usually happens in my life: I think thoughts like "I'm not ready to go home. I'd give anything to stay here. I love it here, I don't want to fall asleep alone, I don't want to say goodbye. If only, only I had one more day." And then on the day I'm due to leave, I rinse the suds from my hair, hang my scrubby sponge for what I thought was the last time from his shampoo bottle and bend to turn off the water only to collapse in a naked, wet heap in the bathtub. Two days later, still tremendously sore and spasming, I return to Baltimore, still naive enough to say "I don't want to fall asleep alone, I don't want to say goodbye." When will I learn, I always get what I want? It just usually comes in the most cruelly ironic ways. 030731 ... misstree that's how Mother Chaos teaches us. She has nothing against a swat on the ass, or a punch in the nose as she hands us the cookie we begged for. Sick thing is, she's always smiling when she does it. And she always means it. And she always loves us. 030801 ... raze on the side of an oxygen therapy truck that settled down on my street for a spell, i saw this: "live well. sleep well. be well." i don't spend a lot of time swearing at vehicles when their drivers are a mystery to me. but i had some harsh words for that one. 240202 ... raze i opened a new browser tab and got an unasked-for article from the fast company website with this title: "why six hours of sleep is as bad as none at all." rub it in a little more, why don't you? (and six hours is a stretch at this point. most nights i'm lucky if i get four or five.) 250904 ... nr "i think women find their confidence from their fathers... the women i know who feel terrific about themselves had wonderful, encouraging relationships with their dads." - judy sheindlin to amy poehler. welp. i don't take stock in everything judy says, but this seems pretty apt. 250904 what's it to you? who go blather from