sleep_and_dream jinx I'm fighting sleep because I know it will be a dreamless sleep-an empty sleep-a meaningless sleep. Eventually, though, I'll pass out. That's when the nightmares will come. Visions of earthquakes-massive cracks to trip on and crevises to fall in. It is my job to save those around me. It is my job to find them and move the boulders from their crooked legs. I'm too small. I can't do it, and with another shutter of the earth, the rock opens, and I fall to the core. 040410 ... me mon just some girl this is me right now fighting with myself 040410 ... mon every_night_mares 040410 ... Ouroboros this is what comes through now when i meditate deeply- the spider webs woven into the cracking fractures of polarities- and i have to stop because i am so frightened of what will come through the darkness if i continue- there is already enough darkness and badness in this world and in my singular mind- i'm not ready for more. so i sleep_and_dream and sleep to much and forget my dreams upon awakening, hiding from this dark mirror 100324 what's it to you? who go blather from