showing_up
tender_square
he
says
he
doesn’t
really
understand
why
this
is
happening
.
well
,
yes
,
he
gets
part
of
it
,
but
not
all
.
of
course
,
me
being
closer
to
my
dad
when
things
aren’t
going
to
improve
with
his
condition
is
important
.
and
being
able
to
help
my
mom
also
makes
sense
.
but
he
doesn’t
see
how
my
hometown
is
“
better
”
or
how
i
can
live
a
creative
life
there
.
he
clarifies
that
it
’s
not
for
me
to
defend;
he
’s
just
expressing
the
questions
that
he
lives
with
,
the
fear
he
has
as
the
change
approaches.
he
doesn’t mention
how
our
relationship
factors
into
my
leave
-taking.
i
tell
him
i
feel
defensive
while
we
idle
at
the
stoplight.
that
i
never
said
my
hometown
was
going
to
be
better
and
this
statement
comes
as
a
surprise
to
him
.
i
’m
not
concerned
about
creativity
,
i
tell
him
,
because
i
write
wherever
i
am
and
have
made
that
commitment
for
a
year
;
it
doesn’t
matter
what
life
has
thrown
at
me
,
i
’ve shown
up
.
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go
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