mutterance .&. mutterflies flutter by so fast you can't quite catch what they are saying 050112 ... IGG i cant hear you calling my name over and over and over again i used to shout back to you but none of you replied. then i was told you weren't shouting. so i shut out the phantom voices i can't hear you, i can't please don't leave me in the dark alone. i'm not alone, and while you abandon me a child alone in her room they call to me and whisper my name sometimes insistent sometimes faint sometimes ANGRY i used to get so scared. maybe just childhood fantasies. but i really doubt that i talked to my friend the other day. he said he had the exact same thing when he was alone in his house in bed as well. when he was a child. i really think there was something there. maybe fairies, who knows. if it's just mental delusions well, that would explain a lot. if not then i don't even want to think about how vulnerable i was then. but if they didn't snatch me when they had the chance, that means they either couldn't physically touch me, or they weren't there. either way i do protection rituals frequently to cleanse my room. paranoia breeds caution. 051024 what's it to you? who go blather from