locked_groove raze maybe i'm not helping anything at all. i mean, who am i kidding? i'm a damaged record that keeps playing the same thing over and over, stuck on a loop. someone throw me at the fucking wall already, melt down the broken pieces, and make a novelty bowl out of them. 130110 ... raze fuck_it. i'm tired of trying. 130328 ... raze part of me wishes i'd written more about this and what it meant when it really meant something — that i'd got at the meat of where this feeling came from. part of me is glad i didn't bother. what's clear now is that it was a total waste of time and emotional energy. lies are the rollerblades of the universe. people sure like to skate around on that shit. too bad there aren't more random tiny stones hanging around to cause the kind of falls that lead to broken arms and torn out nails and bloody knees and elbows. something tells me you'd be reluctant to lace up the skates again after taking a spill like that. 140325 what's it to you? who go blather from