killing_time
tender_square
turns
out
pretending
to
work
is
harder
than
doing
actual
work
.
i
exist
in
this
no
-state
where
workflow isn’t occurring.
my
role
is
to
bid
on
tenders,
yet
my
employer
is
so
tied
up
with
current
jobs
we
can
’t apply
to
future
ones.
i
update
company
resumes;
i
scrutinize
the
company
profile
;
i
research
a
list
of
pivotal builds
to
be
used
in
our
portfolio.
none
of
them
are
necessary
or
time
dependent
.
i
don’t
bill
work
orders
like
my
colleagues,
mostly
because
there
’s
no
project
for
me
to
start
fresh
from
,
only
a
bunch
of
current clients
with
wildly
specific invoicing
needs
too
arcane
to
be
taught.
i
’ve
been
tasked
with
a
project
to
manage
labour
project
rates—number crunching, data
entry
—yet
i
wait
to
be
given
the
go
-ahead
and
hands
-on
direction
to
bring
those
fraught figures
to
the
present
.
so
,
i
take
too
many
trips
to
the
bathroom
,
walking
past
the
ceo’s office,
the
one
with
a
huge,
tinted
window
.
i
read
too
many
fluff articles online
and
follow
community
reddits
for
where
i
live
and
where
i
used
to
live
.
i
watch
security
camera
footage
of
the
tenant
as
it
unfolds.
i
send
personal
emails
and
text
with
friends
.
i
occasionally
answer
reception
and
monitor
an
inbox
that
receives
no
mail
.
eight
hours
of
pretending
to
look
busy
is
a
slog.
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