it_happening_again the girl who cant stop typing . waking up with him on me, in me, struggling, pain, unable to scream, his hand on my mouth, unable to breathe, numb and confused, paralyzed sisters screaming words from the bible, trying to protect me, the door locked. feeling dazed 050324 ... mon uow i've never been able to write or say that before. 050324 ... mon uow forever since that happened the best way to get me to leave a conversation and cry for hours or to just simply go quiet was and is to say: shawnigan_lake. even now to remember anything from that time terrifies the living daylights out of me. just writing this freaks the hell out of me. it's probably not wise but i don't seem to care too_much right_now. i'm tired. 050324 ... mon uow i'll probably regret writing this. i probably already do. 050324 what's it to you? who go blather from