i_searched_my_notes_for_the_word_hold warmthofrelease (I would like to think that this is a band name idea for a barber shop quartet that only sings Roger_Miller songs) Hold Me Hate Me Help Me Hang Me (September 2018) I tend to overdo things. I tend to really exaggerate, and to go a little too far sometimes. My instinct is *always* to go too far. And I can only help myself by holding myself back. Even when it's not always helping. I tend to do things that are just not necessary. It makes me afraid of myself. (April 2015) You saw me for what I was holding back Innocent enough to be fascinated but Guilty enough to keep your distance (April 2015) (Eat What You're Served) one path led you to a dairy and one led you to a corpse so where'd you get your map? (that's right) Clint_Eastwood is right sometimes deserves_got_nothing_to_do_with_it don't hold out for dessert if you ever knew me at all you would know why I'm not there for you (August 2021) feels like life's demand for motion is somehow what's holding me (June 2015) I used to love this mind once upon a time When I thought it would hold in my hands I used to love my life and the things I made When I felt like I had control, or had a say But they're things I never had and I see but it's not too late (March 2015) I'm not holding any cards. Not pulling any strings. I have no control, and I have no power. Except for one thing. Dignity. And that's enough to put you behind me. (June 2021) love_war_and_life are three different ideas operating in the same system you can't know how to navigate them until you've been through them so if you don't know your way about them then don't open your mouth except to ask questions and listen and be glad the world is still yours and hold onto it (May 2017) 250910 what's it to you? who go blather from