i_can't_tell mon was that a spider that bit me in my sleep i can't tell the difference between dreams and being awake it's all the same game gotta play to be safe 040426 ... kerry if i'm awake or asleep my dreams are taking place in my own bed i dream i have to pee so i get up stagger down the hall to the bathroom and then i wake up and i still have to pee and it turned out i never got out of bed at all i dreamed i was talking to you and in the dream you were lying next to me just like you really were and you said someone came into your work and said "i want to hire you for a great job and pay you a quarter million dollars! but you'll have to move to new_york" and in the dream i was happy for you but selfishly sad for myself because knowing how you feel about your job and what it does to your body and brain and psyche it would insane to pass up this opportunity so i said "congratulations, are you gonna take it?" and you said of course, and something along the lines of "we both knew this had to end eventually, right?" and i said "right" but it felt like a slap in the face i rolled over and shook you and asked if we'd been talking and you said no, and i asked if you were moving to new_york for a job that pays a quarter million dollars, and you mumbled "god, i wish" 230816 what's it to you? who go blather from