thumbs
raze
it
used
to
calm
me
to
make
a
meal
of
my
own
uncooked
meat
.
i
would
tenderize
the
dead
cells
on
the
underside
of
each
thumb
with
the
ivory
knives
that
lined
my
mouth
.
when
what
i'd
worn
down
was
weak
enough
to
flay
superficial
flesh
from
deeper
dermis
,
i
would
pry
it
loose
like
a
frightened
fox
with
his
foot
ensnared.
the
wound
only
made
me
wince
once
the
air
got
to
it
.
my
mother
forced
me
to
stop
by
robbing
me
of
what
i
wanted
most
.
my
father
had
a
gentler
way
of
steering
me
from
doing
harm
to
the
hinged levers
on
my
still
-growing
hands
.
he
devised
a
shroud
for
each
damaged
digit
and
drew
a
smiley_face
on
the
front
,
fighting
discomfort
with
unvarnished
love
.
there
are
no
scars
to
mark
these
moments
as
mine
.
only
a
series
of
sepia-tinged
snapshots
time
hasn't
yet
erased
from
my
mind
.
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go
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