red_is_a_slow_colour
raze a new shirt came
in the mail yesterday,
its synthetic skin
dyed the same shade
of red as this.

today i stand staring
at my chest and wait
for words to arrive.

if i'm ever not here
anymore, it probably
means one of the planes
that flies so low i can
almost feel it breathing
has made good on the threat
it's too stubborn to speak,
and i'm as dead as the hope
i had before disaster sank
its meat hooks into me and
dampened my desire to see.

in the meantime
(the cruelest time
i think i've known),
this is the colour
i clothe myself in.

i'll undress to confess
all my favourite sins.
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what's it to you?
who go
blather
from